Lonliness

Heathcliffe · Post by **Heathcliffe** » Sun Mar 20, 2005 12:13 am

Look at me, I'm 23
I'm as honest as can be
But no-one wants to know me
I've searched high and low
What lengths do I have to go
To find someone decent
My hopes and dreams are not Shared by those my own age
So I look to those ladies that are older than me
But prejudiced they all seem to be

And I don't get a second look
Even though my honest face reads like a book
I'm mature inside - but all that I am is going to waste
Down down down I go, with loneliness forever I think I'll be faced

Why isn't honesty faithfulness and romanticism enough
I just end up getting depressed and feeling rough
I've waited for someone all my life
But am greeted with nothing but strife

Will I ever get some help from above
Or do the honest never find true love

Perth · Post by **Perth** » Sun Mar 20, 2005 2:46 am

Perth · Post by **Perth** » Sun Mar 20, 2005 2:52 am

please God save us

Sandra · Post by **Sandra** » Sun Mar 20, 2005 4:46 am

Maybe this helps....

There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
.........................
....................... Ec3

tom.d.stiller · Post by **tom.d.stiller** » Sun Mar 20, 2005 5:20 am

Emily Bronte is much older than thee...

Heathcliffe · Post by **Heathcliffe** » Sun Mar 20, 2005 5:39 pm

To give an analogy - I do feel like that character Heathcliffe in the film Wuthering Heights - all I am is trying to 'get home' to someone who I could love forever, but every damn thing gets in my way - every thing that could go wrong, goes wrong, every thing I have seems to break down or go wrong, or not be the right thing. Every chance seems to be dashed, every hope ruined, every dream crushed, every possiblity destroyed, every piece of luck removed. Every time when my soul gets to see the slightest shadow of a glimmer of a ray of a chance of happiness, everything just goes wrong to ruin it, and I'm left feeling day in and day out why am I cursed? Perhaps it's now easy and plain for all to see, why I am so depressed and disheartened, and why I can't see any hope of ever finding anyone ever??????????????????????????

And I came here hoping to be understood and Perth, and tom.d Stiller have been rude, and I'm not sure about Sandra.

Sandra · Post by **Sandra** » Sun Mar 20, 2005 6:10 pm

Do something you like in the meantime and enjoy your abilities (you must have some) and other things will come in the right time....

"There is a TIME for everything,
and a SEASON for every activity under heaven...."

LaurieAK · Post by **LaurieAK** » Sun Mar 20, 2005 8:20 pm

Heathcliff~

For gawds sake you are in no condition to find a mate.

You sound whiney and self absorbed, to put it kindly.

You need to work on fixing yourself, creating your own reality, setting your own path and stop looking for someone to complete you. Finding a mate under these circumstances is doomed. Read the tea leaves. They are there for a reason.

Fix yourself and ask the hard questions of yourself...and answer them before proceeding.

You may not take it this way but i am trying to helpful and completely serious.

regards,
Laurie

Heathcliffe · Post by **Heathcliffe** » Sun Mar 20, 2005 9:50 pm

I believe you are trying to help me but I feel such an emptiness LaurieAK, and an incompleteness when there is no one to love/or be loved by. I used to fall into the trap, that once someone loved me, all would be well, and everything would become so easy, beautiful etc. I used to feel that I was missing half of my soul when I wasn't loved. And that my beloved would be my other half, and we would become one and complete when we loved each other.

But I learned that perhaps we are all complete souls on our own, but when we do come together - paradoxically we do still become one, but we can become greater than the sum of our parts. Together, two people can inspire and help each other grow. Those whose souls are of a similar frequency (soulmates) or those of identical frequency (twin flames) can make miracles happen through their love. This is what I believe.

LaurieAK, would you please, please, explain to me how I can read my tea leaves. I will try anything.

Heathcliffe · Post by **Heathcliffe** » Sun Mar 20, 2005 9:51 pm

I also realise now that I have even spelt Heathcliffe wrong.

June · Post by **June** » Sun Mar 20, 2005 11:21 pm

Heathcliff, I too can empathise with your troubles and the curse that has befallen your poor, young, miserable life.
I am a little older than what you are, but I can still recall the intensity of the remorse, which dereft me, brestfallen and without a friend in the world.
I was only 69 at the time and despite my natural womanly erges, I had to aknowlidge that what I felt for someone else, was not being recipricated.
I can still hear the words of the idol of my dreams as he turned to me and said, "It's no good June, we are not meant to be. I have loved you from afar and in all honesty, that was probably the best place to be."
So he left.
One day Heathcliff you shall find someone what can give you what you so desperately need and I know from the heart rending words that you've written, that there is someone who could bring you the Joy and a promise of milk and honey. Until then, I can only suggest that you be patient, my dear, and ignoring all the unkind words what others have said to you, that you take yourself in hand and keep the curtains closed on this dreadfully, soul destroying, unbelievably cruel time in your unennviable life.
I hope I've managed to cheer you up.
Take care

Perth · Post by **Perth** » Sun Mar 20, 2005 11:24 pm

June you are a cruel and wicked old hag.
I like you.

LaurieAK · Post by **LaurieAK** » Sun Mar 20, 2005 11:42 pm

I like you.

Dear perth,
of course you do.

LaurieAK · Post by **LaurieAK** » Sun Mar 20, 2005 11:49 pm

LaurieAK, would you please, please, explain to me how I can read my tea leaves. I will try anything.

Since 'tea leaves' was a metaphor for the clues life is dealing you....My previous post gives you all I have to say about this.

regards,
L

Heathcliffe · Post by **Heathcliffe** » Mon Mar 21, 2005 12:22 am

Since 'tea leaves' was a metaphor for the clues life is dealing you....My previous post gives you all I have to say about this.

I'd split a PG pyramid in anticipation.

LaurieAK, my take on love is this - perhaps somebody could point out something that is the root of my situation and problem:
"I feel that love is the most important thing in the world. It is the ultimate goal, and the only point of existence and living. A life without love is a life without meaning. You have love inside yourself to give, but life feels empty and lonely without someone to share that love with. The purest kind of love comes uncondtionally from the soul, and you can feel warmth inside if someone has that kind of love for you.

Love must be defended at all cost. Love isn't love if you can't at least dream and feel that the love you share with someone could last forever. If the love is a true love, from the soul, from each of you, then there is no reason why that love cannot last a lifetime and beyond. I feel personally, that I cannot love someone who isn't spiritual and loves from the soul also, as I know my love would be betrayed. I also feel that short-term relationships are meaingless and destructive, as love is spiritual, and constantly moving on between such material relationships only helps to bring back the negativeness and divides us from our spirituality."